two days until lent begins. yesterday i was thinking, slightly amused as well, how people criticize others for wanting to renew themselves at the start of the new year… well, the same could be said for people who create goals for themselves during lent—who said we couldn’t start before the lenten season? idk, just a thought. i feel like people point fingers far too often without thoroughly thinking themselves out. 

i always try to stray from the typical, teenage things to give up: cussing, drinking soda, eating junk food, etc. to me, lent isn’t about that. yes, it’s about sacrifice, about giving up what you want in order to make room for what you need, about repentance… and because of that, i think petty sacrifices of such simple things is silly and far from the intentions of the lord. 

i mean i guess i’ll include some of those things in my lenten journey, but they definitely won’t be my main focus. if you guys have read my (very rare) religious posts, you may know that i’ve struggled with my relationship with god for a while now. not in a very serious, omg-my-life-is-going-to-end type of crisis, but it’s enough of an alarm to make me concerned and worried about who i am spiritually. 

so for the next 40 days and 40 nights (and hopefully far beyond that time period), i hope to re-immerse myself into the love and nurture only christ can provide me. i have deprived myself of the unconditional forgiveness and love and goodness, and it has taken its toll on me. i have the utmost confidence, primarily because i know god will be at my side, during the good and bad parts of this journey, that i will accomplish my task at the end of lent. and i know that from this reunion with god will spring more happiness, more love, and more of everything that i could ever need in my life.